well. I thought I would make my blogs a little more interesting since, no one wants to read anything usually without some visual inspiration. So I decided to have little banners for my blog to represent the title of the blog itself, my "video of the day" which usually I'll post something I find entertaining or cool if not it'll be a "song of the day" or both .. Just something to make reading my blogs more catchy.

So this time I am going to talk about probably some more random subjects than normal. I went to work today and my boss told me that I had indeed called out of work the night I got drunk with my friend, but I was under the influence so my friend had talked to my boss for me which he thought was hilarious lol. I was a little embarrassed. Went through my day and as all of you do not know, I cannot afford to purchase a car until I start my new job because my current one does not pay enough and I help support (as much as I can) my family. So after I take the bus I walk home from the Transportation Center, and during that time I love to listen to music and just THINK. Lately I've been thinking of my friend. I have a really big crush on him I suppose I'm not completely sure. I've admitted to him that I like him and somehow we still remain friends without making it awkward, as some people ALWAYS tend to make it.

 I really do think that he likes me back but he's not ready for a relationship. He likes to cuddle with me, it's really confusing but I'm not really the type of person to just BRING it up out of the blue and demand an answer because I don't want to make things weird between us. If we end up dating, we end up dating if not we'll still have the great opportunity to be best friends. I can say I love him but I'm not IN LOVE with him and I could say that he's the same way as well or maybe more, who knows.

Moving on, So the other day my friend told me, as she was looking at some of my high school pictures, she might know what has been going on with one of my EX boyfriends. Not like it's been something that's crossed my mind or anything at all but he did pop into my head when I had a really random dream and I was curious as to what had happened to him. Mind you, he was my first boyfriend, first kiss, lost my virginity to him, etc etc. Apparently he's now dating a girl and has been for 3 - 4 years, they're living together and he's an abusive boyfriend. Um, EWW! Not really to the dating a girl part, that's on him but I dodged a bullet with that abusive part lol. We did have a physical altercation when we TRIED working things out but after that it was a no go for me.

Aside from that I've been obsessed with the True Blood Show on HBO, ugh eric .. YUM! haha especially now when he's all "innocent" acting, I just wanna snuggle up with him haha. Well anyways I've been thinking maybe one of these posts I'll post a video of me singing and you all can tell me if I'm American Idol worthy lol. What you think? But Yep aside from that I have homework and stuff I have to take care of, almost done with school thankfully so now I can start on my career and make that money to get us all out of this financial struggle we've been having lately. Talk to you all later =]

Well, instead of a video (even though it is being played from youtube) This is "My Musical Moment" I've been listening to this song ever since my friend e-mailed me the album illegally ! haha no ever since I was introduced to their first single "black out" which is also pretty amazing. I actually came across them even having a new album when my phone (I play Tap Tap Revenge when im bored on my MyTouch4G) announced they were giving away a free download of the "Hell is what you make it" album. So I fell in love with this song, Hope you all like it.

Breathe Carolina - Waiting

So far it has been an interesting week even before the weekend started lol. Some of the words I used last night were "Blacksent, MHM, I say GODDAMN!, and my favorite word to use OH?!" lol. So my friend patrick (who's black lol) came down from Long Beach last night to handle some business and get drunk with me lol. We hung out and watched his niece at her backsetball game. We didn't get there in time to watch her play but none-the-less we were there. They were trying to charge us a 1 dollar admission so I said " I really don't need to watch a basketball game " lol and my friend patrick pulled the family card " well I don't got money, I just came to see my niece play some ball" and they let us in without paying haha. Honestly we're not cheap, but that's alcohol money, we can't just be spending that on basketball ( I make us sound like such alcoholics lol). We ended up going to patty's sister's boyfriend's dad's house since that is the "Party House" ... allegedly. lol. We ended up getting drunk with the dad lol. Which surprisingly was a lot more fun than it sounds. One of the youngsters (17) 's boyfriend wanted a shot but had her come ask us for it. My friend said "have him come out here, put on some music, and have him dance, then we'll give him a shot" haha she said no and he's like "do it, HE'S GOT TO EARN IT!" lol we honestly weren't going to make him do all that and he ended up not coming out to get his shot lol. Which means we had one more shot for ourselves lol. Everything else after that became somewhat of a blurr, but we all knocked out in the kick it spot on the couches lol. I apparently fell off the couch and broke a glass, but it wasn't a big deal. We all laughed about the teen not coming out for his shot lol. There was a lot more that happened that day while in the process of buying alcohol and all that. Like when we went to the high school I kept getting checked out by the high school kids and i walked around saying "I'm not a student!" lol.

We'll here's a short video I took yesterday of nothing lol. There is one skinny bottle in the video ... there were actually 2 of them, emphasis on the "THERE WERE" lol. PS. I'll be hanging out with my friend today (straight) that you'll all get to meet on here since i will be making another video today lol. Just in case u were wondering (probably not) my eyeshadow is nyx I wanted to do a "smokey eye" with purple and blue, idk if u can tell in the video lol.

DARE TO BE DIFFERENT !

I swear I don't do drag or anything like that. I Actually spend my time playing with make up and so forth. I am not transexual nor trying to be a woman. Just entertain myself easily with make up. Here is me going from no make up to random make up look. I found it pretty hilarious. A good way to "break the ice" i guess.

Well considering this is my very first post, normally one would write about who they are and so forth. I've decided not to do that and let you get to know me a different way.

I suppose I could start with my day and see where this post ends up shall we? My day started like any other, work work work. I actually have to take the bus home unfortunately because my car situation isn't very situated, so to speak. I decided to walk home or at least catch the same bus in a different stop , since the bus makes multiple stops I thought I could catch up to it. While I was walking i always get attention from people driving. I'm not saying I am hot stuff or anything like that but somehow even when I'm haggard looking people always do that "checking you out" glance; it's very noticeable. As I was walking my boss' daughter called me and I guess she caught me walking and offered a ride. I was waiting in the corner of the street like some prostitute looking for some money as she drove around to pick me up lol.

As I was waiting for her to pick me up this guy that I met on the bus randomly one day ended up crossing the street. A little back story to this is I think he assumed I was a girl and had asked if I wanted to hang out, I said sure but I did make it aware that I was a boy, I didn't completely address it but I'm sure he got the hint. He had put off hanging out with me and decided to give me an explanation like I was some worried boyfriend or something. Anyways I talked to him for a while and I made it clear that I was busy that day and that I had no time to hang out, which i really did not.

I got dropped off at home and decided I wanted to eat, so I made myself some spaghetti, MIND YOU -- I cannot cook, or have little knowledge of cooking but do a pretty good meal for myself lol. Ate a bit and since I showered the day before I decided I did not want to wash my hair today so I just washed my body instead, BUT! when I tried to avoid wetting my hair ... I ended up wetting it anyways UGH! It took me longer to get ready then I thought it was since I take night classes. Anyways, I dried my hair and started to do my make-up. Today I decided I did not want to do a traditional make up look for school and decided to do something crazier.

For my make up today I did my normal foundation powder bit as usual, but for eyeshadow I used the "tropical" color collection from covergirl. I used a bright orange on the lid and the darker green color for the crease, while using white and light green for the brow highlight. For blush I used a bright pink eyeshadow from nyx, and for my face highlight I used the nyx ultra white mixed with the covergirl light green from the "tropical" "collection" lol. I honestly thought I was going to end up looking a HOT mess for sure but I am either a make up GENIOUS or really good at blending, but the entire look ended up looking really NORMAL and the highlight on my face made me look more awake.

Ok, sorry for the extended make-up routine explanation but I finished the rest of my make up , liquid liner, mascara, etc. Got ready for class, by the way I am attending school for my A.S. in Pharmacy Technician. (Which I am almost done!! WHOOP!). After I was done I received a phone call from my friend (which him a different friend and myself make up a small little clique we call "the girlfriends" , so when u hear that I'm speaking of one of them) Well, the girlfriend called me saying he's in town this weekend so you know what that means, PARTY! drinks, laughs and for him some of that MARY J, and her Blige.

Went to class and OH! this entire time I'm at school I always have classes with this guy, he's totally my type but straight =/ . I will say I have a bit of a crush on him but I know it's not going anywhere lol. Whenever he passes by me I know he looks at me cuz I end up looking up to catch a glimpse of him and he looks away (or i catch him in the process of looking away) EEK!! lol. My brother ends up picking me up from school and has to run an "errand" so I have to wait in the car for 20 minutes of torture, ... again UGH!.

Anyways, there wasn't anything in particular I was getting to, I usually have a lot to say but since I would have to explain all the back stories to every single thing I want to say I don't want to end up writing a bigger novel to you all lol. My posts will end up a lot smaller from time to time, hitting the key points to my stories. I have a lot of interesting things to talk about, THERE IS always drama, gay fights, etc etc going on in my life and I hope some of you find it interesting enough for me to share it with you.