August 15, 2011
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Starting My Trans-ition
I bet most of you thought as soon as you read the title I would be discussing how I will start a pre-operation regiment so I could prepare myself to transition into a woman. Well, that's not the case nor something that will occur in the near, distant, or any future. I wanted to discuss how people assume things so quickly of people, including myself.
I will admit that it is really easy to assume that because I have long hair and make-up on, that I am some sort of: Cross-dresser, transsexual, transvestite, or Drag queen. To be clear I do not label myself as any of those options because I am none of those options. By definition and standard I do not even fit into any of those categories. I'm always asked if I am either one of those things and I cannot say yes, because I am not and I don't feel like any of those things. It's easy to say that I love and enjoy being a man and all aspects of being a homosexual male. The only difference between me and the "gangster gay" community is I have long hair and make-up.
Most of my friends have known me through high school when I did not even touch make up nor had an inclination to try on make up, but as the fates would have it I now do wear make up from time to time and enjoy playing with make up. The whole aspect of make up is illusion and to mask certain things about yourself. I have fun playing with it because it entertains me, that goes with the hair as well. Eventually I will stop wearing make up, and loose the hair I have growing from my scalp but until then those who can accept me, I welcome you. To those who feel awkward being my friend ... TRUST ME, I'll loose one of you, I end up gaining 3 or more.
As most gays I have never really been picked on in high school for being different, nor beat up or ridiculed for anything I am, so I cannot say that I have had a hard life. I had a hard life doing the things I want to do in order to become the person I want to be, whatever that may be today, tomorrow, next week , or next year, or 10 years from now. We all take life a day at a time, but some people really need to learn to accept EVERYONE, even if they DON'T have a label, because honestly I've gone from "goth" looking, to "scene" looking, to "mexican" looking, to now "tranny" looking. My look will always change, no one will know maybe next week ill shave my head and grow out a beard lol. That decision is mine and people should allow others to make their own decisions or should make their own decisions not easy ones to try and fit in with everyone else.
DARE TO BE DIFFERENT! 
I took these pictures today on my way to orientation for my last and final class until I start my externship (and it's online so I have even more free time now before then) 
Well this time the music is also the video lol. but I have been listening to this song for a long time now, and it's one that always chills me out and somehow gets me to think about stuff lol hope u like it
Comments (8)
i am so jealous of ur hair! and i agree with you. Sometimes ppl mistake me for a tranny. I just tell them i like being androgynous and that's it. I know I am a man, i'm just more feminine than most. lol
have you ever heard of the term "genderqueer"? it's essentially a third gender that is neither male nor female. some people identify themselves this way when they don't feel right in either of the gender roles. in any case, traditional gender roles are so completely outdated, and you certainly serve as a wonderful example of how the human race is evolving.
You're right. Unfortunately I no longer try to be different. My husband still does sometimes but then he wonders why he never gets a promotion at work. With everyday life and jobs being different isn't a good thing. But that's what the weekends are for sometimes.
I liked the song and video even though it was rather sad.
@empathic_dreamer - Aww don't be jealous of my hair it's a hassle! lol yeah I agree I like being androgynous it's something that entertains me lol. I would honestly say though that I'm not as feminine as others would assume I am though, except when I'm in make-up I kind of force it so people don't end up being akward but after 5 minutes I dont care lol.
@poprobbit - I have not heard that term before, but I understand what you are talking about, I actually heard of it termed a different way. I cant really remember the actual term but i'll try finding it and get back to you with it lol. It probably is GenderQueer and im thinking it's something else. Thank you! =]
@FalconBridge - Well I understand where you are coming from, of course in the workplace it is not somewhere appropriate to express your individualism or be different, they never go for that, Yes, very much agreed the weekends or on off times is when I am myself, at work im strictly businesss.
Yeah, the song is good, and sad but I enjoy listening to it, kind of a reminder of how some people are lol.
I noticed the writing on the little thing they had you wear around your neck that said college and Charleston. Are you by chance from South Carolina?
@how2saveaplanet - No actually I'm from Southern California lol. I believe the Charleston u saw was actually the word Charter =/
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FUCK LABELS. I can't agree with you anymore.
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