Hello World!

          I hope everyone is doing well this week, and having a great day today. Today's subject is one I know oh too well. It definitely is something I have dealt with almost my entire life but has been dormant and has recently come back to haunt me the other day. Yes indeed, I am talking about the most annoying thing ever, ANXIETY!

Like I stated anxiety is something I've dealt with almost my entire life, and honestly the main reason for my anxiety was drinking. I have recently, almost about 3 weeks coming up to be exact, decided to take 6 months to a  year off of drinking. I have noticed drinking was definitely consuming my time and my life. It was starting to get to the point where it was no longer for enjoyment but for necessity.  Unfortunately the reason I decided to start drinking or to go out for the first time to a party was a break up with a boyfriend one to two weeks prior to my first time going out, this was in 2005 or 06. Rather than dealing with being emotional and sad (which I no longer do when it comes to those things, I've learned from experience it is not worth being so down over someone who will definitely not be worrying about you), I decided to go out with one of my best friends and have fun. I will admit I have had a lot of fun with all of the people I've met but most of them were just drinking buddies or using me for a good time. 

The only thing I do regret is focusing my life on drinking for the next couple of years, until the past few years where I have slowly but surely redirected my focus to things that really should be taking up my time. A step in the right direction is always better late then never. 

Moving back to the other main focus of this post is anxiety, A couple of days ago I was having a great day, watching some movies, having some green tea and getting ready to take a shower; I started feeling a bit uneasy. I ignored it because I thought it was just my body trying to tell me "lets drink" ( I had the day off the day after and usually before my decision I would drink because I did not have anything to do the next day so I could deal with the hang over). I took a shower listened to some music and sang along and sure enough my anxiety finally kicked in. 

Honestly I have not felt such bad anxiety as that day, I was shaky, nervous, could not stop pacing around, had trouble breathing correctly, it was more of a panic / anxiety attack. My body was so used to having alcohol in my system that I guess it was in a bit of shock I suppose. I did my breathing exercises and listened to some relaxing music and just laid on the ground and id some deep breathing. 15 minutes later I finally was able to calm myself down and get myself together. Prior to that I was not so used to dealing with anxiety I would freak out and end up having to go to the hospital and getting prescriptions for Xanax to help me deal with it,but I do not like taking anxiety medication. It is addicting and from being at work and seeing how bad people become so dependent on "helpful" medication that I do not want to turn into that. It definitely is something I have to get used to having so much free time in my hands to go do things I want to and I finally have time to make videos again, and do make up "tutorials" which is very exciting. 

I've noticed since I've stopped drinking these past two weeks I've saved about 240 dollars, which seems like a lot when added but when you drink you don't think about it. I'ts always "oh its just 5 dollars, or 20 dollars. that's not too bad" it adds up obviously. 

So tell me: Any of you suffer from anxiety / panic attacks? How do you deal with it? What do you think triggers you to have these episodes? 

Well Hello, Dolly! lol 

I just want to say that I will have more time to write on my blog thanks to my one decision, I have decided to stop going out and drinking for at least 6 months to a year. Which will definitely cut down on my "social" or unhealthy time consuming events. 

Aside from that What is coming up is my national certification for my Pharmacy Technician license in May and I have about 2-3 weeks to study which seems like a long time to study but I'm so used to doing everything last minute that now that I don't have any focus on drinking (which was a main reason I did things last minute) I have begun to study. 

I used to be really into math when I was younger, Regular math, Algebra 1 & 2, Statistics, etc were all so much fun for me to do. When I went to pharmacy school in 2010-2011 I only had 1 math class requirement and I felt so stupid only because I was so into partying and drinking that I completely forgot how to do math. Math was one of the easiest subjects for me because I was so focused on being  great at everything I did in school. Economics, Science, Math, English, History, were all easy classes for me boring for some but easy enough. Although P.E was an entirely different story, I did not like sweating in front of other people and having to shower in the same shower as everyone so I passed with a C to avoid doing all that lol. 

Anyways, moving back to the point, now that I have taken this time to regroup myself and focus completely 100% on my priorities i have realized it has become just as easy to learn these subjects as it was back in high school because I have no distractions as I did before. I'm very excited to hopefully accomplish another stepping stone in my life and prove to myself I am worth everything I think I am. Even doing all this studying has kind of made me even consider going to Pharmacy School and Become a Pharmacist, but that will be in the future hopefully. 

So in closing, What are your thoughts  on math? was it your best subject? worst subject? what math classes did you take while in school? 

"Dare to be Different" - Armandolush

Happy Sunday Everyone!

So my day started off pretty fun. I went with my parents to a "swap meet" which if you don't already know its just kind of like an open market they have at a college here in my area that have different stands selling either, clothes, toys, make up, games, etc etc etc. We ended up not purchasing anything because their definitely was not much of interest their but it was nice to go out with my family for a while. 

I did although notice a lot of people staring at my it could have been the pink at the ends of my hair, but it was mostly straight guys. I looked back a couple of times after I walked passed them and i noticed they are still looking at me. I know it was me because two of them winked at me in front of my parents which is really embarrassing because its not something they particularly want to see a man do at their child. 

Keeping it short and sweet, we ended up going to the Walmart here in town to buy my mother some cheap working boots she needs and their was non, so we went to the Payless shoe store across the way and while she was looking for those I went to the "GAMESTOP" here to look at some video games for my WII that I don't often play but I want to rather than drink lol. I found a game I actually really wanted to play and the line was not too long but it did look un-promising. 

Of course I was right, a grown ass kid trust me he was 19 at least lol took up about 45 minutes asking the guy about pre-ordering, and if they had this in stock, and that in stock, and if he returned this how much would he get for it. When finally I got irritated and told him "are you almost done? because if u were going ot ask this questions, it takes 2-3 minutes to ring up 1 person in this line and it took u 30 minutes to get rung up. Have some manners and let others go if you know you are going ot take forever, no one has time to be waiting on u asking questions that can be answered on their website, you know they have a website right? u have internet right? you're not an idiot right? tell mommy to let you use her credit card and do it at home!" 

I know, I know, it was a bit rude but I am a pretty patient person, but only for so long. 

So tell me, what would you have done in that situation? How long do u think you would have lasted if u had to wait that long in a line just because of 1 customer?

Until next time  

"Dare to be Different" - Armandolush 

Hello Everyone!

So today was a very interesting day at work. Everything going on as usual. Decided for some strange reason that I should read the news paper as usual, but then I looked in the local news section and under the "most wanted" list in the newspaper one of our regular patients was on it. I honestly found it hilarious simply because I kind of knew something like that was bound to happen. She is what everyone knows as a "user" The funny thing is I showed everyone at work and come to find out she was there earlier today before I showed up to work to try and pick up some norco medication. It really is hilarious but my pharmacist laughed and then took down the number to where we should call just in case she tries to come back lol. 

Aside from that Also in the newspaper their was an article of a dog that had eaten his masters money ( $500 to be exact ) and claims that the government should reimburse him for his lost money. I mean why is the government responsible for your stupidity for even having $500 laying around like that? I guess he doesn't have a wallet or a brain. 

So tell me, what would you do in the situation of the above paragraph? and do you think the government should reimburse him for his "loss" ? 

Can't wait to read your answers  

Until next time 

"Dare to be Different " - Armandolush

Good evening everyone! Or morning depending on where you may be. 

So Today I would like to talk about being a Pharmacy Technician. I myself as some of you know am a Pharmacy Technician. I've been a tech for about a year and 4 months. I find great satisfaction in being a Pharmacy Technician and I do take pride in being able to help people or at least do my best to make sure they all get what they need WHEN they need it. Although I have noticed a lot of people who are Pharmacy Technicians do not prioritize the need to provide excellent pharmaceutical care. 

I'll just mention one place where I live the navy base pharmacy. I always have customers come into my pharmacy complaining and telling us they lie to them and say they don't have any medication for them when they do. Then they get upset at us for calling them out on their BS. See I am the type of person that I can handle getting yelled at but if you work as a tech and you are full of *dog poop* lol then I will call you out on it. Call me a liar when you are lying and not doing your job? Then I will get even more upset. LIVID infact.

I honestly have no shame in yelling at the nurses, other stores, etc. If they DID their job in the first place, they would not have to deal with me;but they do not and they HAVE to deal with me. If they hang up on me, I call back, hang up again, I'll keep calling I have no shame and I will get my point across to them lol. Everyone at my store knows I'm an ass like that because I take pride in my job and make sure I do it RIGHT. If you do not like doing your job as a technician then maybe you should definitely NOT be a Pharmacy Tech. That's why people always get the wrong medication and end up having even bigger health problems, it's lazy people who want to earn a quick buck to feed their selfish desires that really get under my skin. 

I mean I enjoy making money and I do enjoy the benefits of how much I'm making, but I do prefer making sure they money I make is very much earned. As the saying goes " If you're not happy at work, then it's time to find another job" So with that I have a question for you all: 

What is one place you've been to : Pharmacy, Fast Food, etc; that you've had the most terrible service at? 

"Dare to be Different" - Armando Lush 

Summing up my day in less than two minutes. In a whole video

Hi Everyone!

So I just got out of work. I've been working at my new Job as a Pharmacy Technician for a little over a year now, I have been extremely busy with work but I have decided to make sure I make time to post on here daily. I have actually had a lot happen to me the past year so I really feel like I do have a lot to share and you know me. I'm an open book. 

So lets start off with something that happened to me not too long ago that really got on my nerves. I was online and someone had contacted me and was very charming and sweet. So I said whatever I'll go with it. In his status it said bisexual which didn't bother me at all lol, like some of u know I am a boy but from time to time with the make up and hair I do not look as such. I continued to have a conversation with him and I honestly did start to like him, he actually did not live that far from me almost like a 20 minute drive. He kept flirting and of course I kept being interested. He claimed he liked me and wanted to be with me which was fine, but over the years I've learned to not give so much to someone at once only to protect myself from getting hurt and from the past times I've been hurt; I've also learned how to let go very quickly. One day we were having a conversation I can't honestly remember what the conversation was about to be honest. But he said he wanted to meet me and I said ok when and where? and before we even reached that part of the conversation he throws in "Oh and so does my girlfriend she thinks you are super cute" which made me do a double take and the "WHAAT!" face ----> . I honestly did not care that he has a girlfriend and they do this whole love triangle thing, hey; do what makes you happy, but if you are going to do that at least make sure the person you are trying to reel in is actually aware and willing. I do not want to share the person I'm dating with another person. Let alone I do not like vagina or would have sex with it lol. 

Like I said luckily I let go quickly so I got rid of him and moved on, their is no time to waste lingering on people's ridiculousness. Aside from that happening I've had a lot of wonderful things happen. I finally was able to purchase the camera of my dreams which is the "GOPRO HD Hero 3" as you can see from the previous post that is the video quality for it and I am super excited. I also purchased a cute hat from Spirithoods.com titled "nasty rabbit" lol. I really wanted the wolf one but its too expensive. maybe in the near future I'll be purchasing that one aswell. 

I will also be re-vamping my page and making new graphics and titles for each post which ill be working on and have up soon. Very exciting. 

In the mean time, how is everyone doing? Hope you all had a fun year. =] I'll talk / see you all tomorrow Goodnight. 

ILL BE BACK FINALLY WITH SOME NEW THOUGHTS TOMORROW =] Sorry for being gone for WAYYY SO LONG! I've been reading your comments and posts .